The winds are changing and they are blowing me away from you. That is your fault, I stood fast and strong for far too long. Just keep in mind, as your world washes me away, that once I was truth for you, and you may never find that again. Though the storms on my horizon are filled with gloom and go on for miles, someday I will have summer again, and while I flourish in the sunshine, you will try your best to not drown in regrets. I love you, but you did this. A lifetime of maybes lost in a sea of selfishness.

where are we, so lost in the sound?

don't let go.. wait it'll all quiet down.

can you hear my heart keeping time?

hold me close and our rhythm will align.

yes, i am eating face in this picture. not the best pic, but i love it anyways. aimee and i have been friends since 5th grade, and our relationship has done nothing but gotten stronger. its one of the many things that make my life amazing. ♥

ten things i like about myself.
(hmm this is probably a lot more difficult for myself, only knowing myself for 19 short years)

1. my natural abilities. i feel very blessed to be as good at what i loe to do as i am.

2.my ability to forgive. i have spent my life around people holding grudges and seeking revenge and frankly, have never gotten the point. i think the only thing i have never totally forgiven is fate for what it has done to my wonderful father.

3.my smile. at work im known for always smiling, and its pretty contageous too, so my tables always leave with a smile. and i love that its not a perfect smile. i heart my gap lol.

4. my ability to listen. i think that many people, especially young people, have forgotten how to listen, which leaves a lot to be desired for a conversationalist. people always say that they feel like they've knownn me forever, and i believe this is a result of my listening.

5. my spark. im not eactly sure what that spark is, but peoptle always tell me about it. i am going to assume its my self confidence, but if you have a better word for it, get back to me, haha.

6. my appearance. this may sounds shallow, but i am honestly very grateful for my parents. i am no beauty, but i like that i am unique and appreciate all my attributes, good or bad. come on, look at those cheekbones lol.

7. when i love someone, i love them completely. with every corner of my heart, and all the spaces in between. when i am betrayed, it hurts a lot worse than it would hurt most think, but when i am loed back it is the most fantastic thing in the world.

8. my ambition. i will leave this place one day, and everyone will remember me. and wherever i go, people will see me coming. i know what i want and i am already driving towards that goal. it surprises friends my age, because most have no clue.

9. empathy. its something my mother has never had, and i learned from that and embraced it. my father says that that is one of the things he likes about me most, and that means a whole lot.

10.my wicked sense of humor. if i couldn't make people laugh, i'm pretty sure i'd be an introvert. i love being able to brighten someone's day.

its been hot in indiana, and this particular hose has been on tour of my mother's gardens for the past couple of days. i've hardly seen the light of day, though, with the many hours of work i do each week.

so maybe i have too many kitty pics, but they're just so dang cute. russia is sprucing up for his daily meeting with the other felines of the neighborhood. notice my focus on the cat and not myself? i have my reasons. ♥

so the picture's not great, i'll admit that, definitely a candid shot, but its an amazing shot to me. these girls are probably the two real friends i've had for the longest period of time. aimee (left) has been my friend since fifth grade, when we decided to stop hating eachother. and rachel (right) i met on the first day of seventh grade at orientation. we sat next to eachother and agreed to make an alliance. this pic is perfect because it describes our friendship so well. in one word? awesome. ♥